madness of loss

What is the right way to deal with loss of a relationship? Because I believe in life after this, it makes me even more curious. To know how we relate to those who have left and what our future with them will be.

This is the questions of my heart in the middle of the night.

My heart is yours and finding how to live without you is maddening. Do I remember you at every step? Do I ask you about everything? Do I live my own life? Are we separate? Are you busy? Do you need space? What if I don’t get any clear ideas of what you want? Or feel guided? What if I fell lost and with no purpose? Just drifting along? What if I don’t do enough to keep our relationship or don’t focus on us enough? What if I have place and time for the living but not the dead? Have a I failed you again? Oh God, please make it that I have not failed her again!

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